my blogging hiatus was both purposeful and unintentional. there are a dozen or so unpublished posts that served their purpose, and I knew the moment I began writing them the only eyes that would read those words would be mine. on the other hand, I've tried to lose myself in work, travel, and anything that can basically allow me to escape the fact that I'm struggling.
we are about to embark on a new phase of this journey. I'd by lying if I said I wasn't still sad that I won't be carrying my own child (or children), because I am... but all along, what my heart has ached for most is for us to have a family. that now means that we have to move forward and search for someone to fulfill that dream for us.
what comes next won't be any less difficult or trying than what we've endured thus far, but what I believe is we will have a family.
-The quest to believe in something is personal and sacred. It's a battlefield and a pilgrimage, all in one breath.- (hannah brencher)